Ok so today has turned into one really long picking session. I posted “Broken” a few hours ago and haven’t stopped since. I have left no scab unpicked.. no blemish untouched. My legs are stinging all over and every open wound is throbbing as if they each have their own unique, incredibly painful heartbeat. I feel numb. Almost dead inside. The disappointment and shame I feel right now is beyond words. I want to hide myself from the world but sadly life is not that easy to escape from. Instead I will stifle a cry as I flinch in pain while pulling on my work pants tonight.

Time for me to apply my makeup and paint on a happy face. I hide the emotional scars and wounds almost as well as I hide the phsyical ones.